Scare of a lifetime

We all have been sick in bed since Thursday night and I was having trouble breathing so I went in for a check. They later called me to say that a test came back indicating I had thrown a blood clot into my lungs and to go to the hospital immediately for more tests because this kind of thing occasionally happens in pregnancy and can be fatal. Thank God everything turned out ok, but they did expose the baby to some radiation and other substances that we pray won't harm her. They were not sure as to the risks of the tests, only said that the risk to me superceded other concerns at the moment. We were absolutely terrified. I never planned on needing to have the kinds of conversations I had with my husband yesterday. Talks about comas, raising our daughter (s), things that shouldn't be left unsaid.

I have so much more respect for life today than I did yesterday. Not taking it for granted. Really realizing that I hold 2 lives in my hands right now and if I don't take care of myself, I am not taking care of the other.

But, as I said, I am fine. They did not find anything and hopefully that will be the end of it. Just wanted to let you know. We have all returned to our regularly scheduled colds.