Monday, July 04, 2005

Dear Baby

Dear baby of mine,

I've been doing a lot of thinking about you lately since the day we will meet face to face is fast approaching. I lay awake when you are squirming around trying to find a comfortable spot and settle in for the night. I think about what you will look like, what you will smell like, what kind of person you will be. I have so many hopes and dreams for you. You have been in my dreams since I myself was a little girl.

I know I have done so many of the wrong things during this time we have shared a body. I just pray that you won't suffer for my indescretions and selfishness. Prayer seems to come easy these days. I pray for your health. I pray that I can make it through your journey into the world.

When I'm not praying I am dreaming about all of the things I hope you will have in your life. I hope that like your mom and dad, God will give you an extra heap of sparkle that will make you shine and show the world how special you are. I wish for you the ability to learn, understand and grow. I hope you find the love of family and understand how important it is to connect with your people and know where you come from and that you will never prefer video games to a game of cribbage with your grandfather. I hope that life is difficult enough for you that you will understand that the struggle is the most important part of the journey, but that your dreams are always in your grasp.

I pray that you work in a restaurant in high school. Maybe one that makes you wear a funny hat. Everyone needs to learn humility and there is something about super-sizing that seems to do the trick. I pray you study hard and get good grades. If not, I promise you will pay. I hope you will go to college even though you are scared and have no idea what you want to be. I promise you will figure it out while you are there. Besides, college is a lot more fun than working at Jiffy Lube.

I commit to you that I will always listen to your side of the story and not accuse first. I promise to raise you in a Christian home and eat dinner as a family at the table every night. I promise I will never, no matter how much you beg, put a T.V. in your bedroom. I also commit to you that no matter how tired and worn out I am, you will never get what you want as a reward for behaving badly. I pray you have many friends in your lifetime, the kind of friends I have been blessed with. I pray you never settle for a man who treats you badly to avoid being alone. Lonliness can teach you so much about who you are. I hope you can forgive me for all of the mistakes I will surely make along the way.

Above all else I wish you to have the gifts of patience, understanding, open-mindedness and laughter, the qualities of perserverence, loyalty and sincerity. I hope you have the kindness and gentleness of your father and the joy and ability to see beyond the moment like your mother.

Although we aren't and will never be ready for you, we are anxiously waiting your arrival.

Welcome to our family. You are wanted and you are loved.

Love,

Your mother

8 Comments:

Blogger LittleRazz said...

Now you're just trying to make me cry! I think you're more ready than you think you are. It sounds like you'll be a fabulous mother. I'm thinking of you and hoping you and your daughter get through this with health and joy.

3:15 PM  
Blogger New Mom said...

Awww. I think most mothers share the same hopes and dreams for their little ones, because those are what I want for my baby too. I'm sure you'll be a great mom.

5:55 PM  
Blogger Mama M said...

What a beautiful letter. You already are a wonderful mom.

7:57 PM  
Anonymous Nuwanda said...

Ok, now I'm crying! That was beautiful and very well said. All moms everywhere are right there with you.

8:17 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Awww, I love it. I think about the kind of father I want to be all the time and wish I could just write it all down too

11:08 AM  
Blogger Jezer said...

And Amen.

Thoughts and prayers for you, baby, and daddy.

Jana

6:54 PM  
Blogger Rae said...

That is just beautiful. I wish I could be so eloquent, but I know I wish the same for mine. Thanks for a lovely read.

7:11 PM  
Blogger Adam's Mom said...

I ran across your blog through a comment you left on my friend, Sabrina's blog. Thank you for this letter! I too hope to raise my child in a Christian home and to eat dinner as a family every night as I did with my family (some of my best memories are from around that table)

Thanks for reassuring me that we can never really be ready but are anxious to meet our little ones. From the sounds of your letter, you have the morals and goals for your child, and THAT makes you a wonderful mom already.

Sincerely,

Sheri
Due Christmas Day 2005

9:23 PM  

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